During my 2 years plus Healing Sabbatical from Chronic Lyme Disease I was led to explore some questions that I had had regarding what some people may term “New Age” practices or what others may call spiritual or alternative services.
I have always been deeply spiritual as far back as I can remember as a young child and this was almost always infused in all of my professional work in my adult life. In high school, my neighbors, with the permission of my parents, brought me to a Billy Graham Crusade at the McCormack Center in Chicago and I found myself going forward at the end of the evening and accepting Christ into my life. In fact, I did it twice. Two days in a row! My neighbors went back the second night and knew I loved it so invited me to go along. When the invitation to come forward was extended again I went forward. I knew I did not need to. It was just symbolic for me. A recommitment if you will. However, I failed to let my neighbors know what I was doing and when I glanced back and saw their faces they looked very confused …. rather funny now.
My faith deepened after that day and my journey took many interesting paths over the years. Some of them were side trails and a little “off the path”, but eventually I would find my way home again. In recent years my journey had what I now call a more diluted form of Christianity, however at the time I didn’t realize this. For example, when I practiced and taught things like Reiki I always had a strong emphasis on making sure people knew that it was “God Energy” and that I or people that did Reiki were not doing the healing. We were just the channels or vessels being used by God… or what some people would also call “Source,” as well as many other New Age names. To me, however, it was always from God and that Energy so I never saw it as something that was not Christian. Similarly, when I decided I would do readings for people the only area I felt comfortable in pursue training in was in Angel Card reading with someone who worked with Doreen Virtue. I did not want to pursue other types of tarot cards for example and I saw that as a significant difference. There are many other examples I could give as well.
Even though I was doing a lot in the New Age arena I still gravitated more to a relationship with Jesus more than anything else over the years. And in the last few years during my sabbatical I found myself exploring things like “The Course In Miracles” and other books that were supposed to be inspired by Jesus. However, something didn’t seem right and my questioning continue to grow more and more. I remember at one point contacting some former students who were now Ministers and I asked their opinion about things like the “Course in Miracles”. To be honest I already knew what the answer was, however, I was not ready to hear it as I didn’t want to hear anything yet about some of the authors of these books who I had come to love and admire. The Ministers I contacted didn’t have the answers anyway at the time but I wouldn’t have been ready to hear it back then anyway. At this time, I also explored some New Thought Leaders who seemed extremely loving and inspired by the “Divine Presence”. However, there would always, always, be a caveat and stumbling point no matter how Loving and how Inspiring these individuals were. I would eventually come to and hit a road block and know firmly in my soul that this was not of God. I would bristle and resist what they taught and sometimes abandon that teaching, book, individual or group. Sometimes however, I might just toss out that part of what they taught and continue with the rest of their teachings. I am afraid to say I was that mislead for a while.
The saving grace however, is that my relationship with Jesus deepened as I kept searching more for the truth and continued reading the bible and praying. It was up to me to find the truth. I “was still and listened”. And it was no coincidence that the very same week that I had made the decision to stop practicing my former alternative medicine (New Age) services that I came across a YouTube and web site of the former New Ager and author of Spirit Science Website who now is a Christian and has information on his “Reason For Jesus” site that details his journey and gives excellent information for people that need help in discerning the truth. Then once again, it was no coincidence that several days later I saw Steven’s interview with Doreen Virtue the well-known Hay House Author who recently became a Christian and put her testimony on a YouTube. I never knew she had done this nor saw her testimony that apparently had been done several months early. I saw and heard it when I was intended to hear it and it was perfect timing. I listened to it right after I heard Steven interview her, which I highly recommend people listen to both on YouTube. Doreen has decided to continue some of her former services with a Christian focus. Since I am semi-retired and also since my only passion now is Dancing Mindfulness, I have simply chosen not to explore ways to continue any of my former services. I am not sure there would be ways I could do them with a Christian focus. There may be, however, I haven’t explored this enough to know and feel comfortable with it so until I know otherwise I won’t be doing anything except Dancing Mindfulness. I will put information on a Blog or certainly people that that know me may check in with me from time to time to see if I have any new “revelations” if you will. However, again since I am semi-retired I wanted to make sure that it was officially noted on my website why services that students/clients use to come to A Step Forward LLC for in the past will no longer be available except for Dancing Mindfulness. I also hope that the reasons I have stated about this will help some people in their journey. I know it took a while for me and I had a strong background and Christian upbringing. So I am sure it can be very confusing for many people. I actually had a few former students even come to me once a few years ago when they would ran into me and they tried to “warn me” about the evils of my ways (not knowing anything about my faith or belief system – only that I taught Reiki because they took a course from me then later decided they erred in their ways.) Their approach was very judgmental and it looked like they wanted to burn me at the stake. So, I look back now at those times and think that if they were had been more loving and open how it might have opened up the door sooner for me to look more deeply at things. I mention this because I believe it is very important for anyone who is trying to help others see things from a Christian perspective that they come think how Jesus would do it. What would he say, what would he do, how he would treat and receive someone etc. I know when I do that (wish I would do it more often) it makes all the difference in the world. Many Blessings.